WHAT DO I REALLY WANT?

The logic went something like this, first in my head and then down to my heart. I desire to be pregnant. I also desire God's glory to be made manifest in my life. Both things are good. The Lord calls the former a blessing and reward. However the latter always holds the trump card. To desire God's glory above all things trumps all of His gifts, even His most precious ones. Therefore, to pursue the not-givens in life is illogical. Even though being pregnant would be a good thing, it would not be the highest way, the way to most glorify God at this time. Why? I don't know. The one thing I do know though is that the highest way, the way of glorifying God, is the way to the most joy and the most fulfillment. All other roads are dead ends.