ANATOMY OF THE FIRST DAY BACK

You would think it wouldn't have taken me years to figure this out. Every Monday and any day back to school after a break will always be rough. I tried to fight it and be strict but I've realized that I just need to accept it and roll with it. It is what it is and it's not a reflection on me. I think that's really what it's been about. However my day went, I saw it as a grade on my performance, and ultimately a judgment on who I was. I've spent the last year working through that and weeding out the lies and meditating on the truth.

That doesn't mean that I'm not tempted to that line of thinking anymore. So today I reminded myself that the day would definitely not be perfect and at least one of my children would have some sort of meltdown. I was right. The youngest had a sour face this morning and the middle one cried during math for some unrelated reason. But I just kept praying for wisdom and rolled with whatever came at me and by lunchtime everyone was back in the swing of things.

Homeschooling is hard but you do learn a lot of lessons.