I AM IN A FIGHT...

I am fighting for delight, for joy, for more faith. From the end of February until about the middle of April it seemed I was living Habakkuk 3:19 ~

"The Lord God is my strength, and He has made my feet like hinds' feet, and makes me walk on my high places."

The intimacy with the Lord through His word was so rich and almost tangible. Lately I haven't been treading those high places as much. In the past I would get so down on myself that I was so up and down spiritually. I would expect these times to last forever and I was sure I had found IT - the one method for a higher plane of spiritual existence.

I praise God for what He has taught me and what I experienced during those six weeks. So what do I do now? I am still in this flesh, I am still here on this earth with its decay and trouble. It is a fight, it is a struggle - this life of faith. Why do I keep forgetting that? Why am I so complacent sometimes and even cynical. Here RC Jr. describes the deadly result of cynicism - a hardened, cold heart. And here John Piper preaches on fighting this fight, on using the word of God soaked in prayer to give you the right ammunition. Paul was right when he said ~

"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." 2 Timothy 4:7
and
"...but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me...I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:12b, 14

O Lord, have mercy on me and give me the strength and the desire to fight this fight. It is a good fight for the reward is You and in Your presence is fulness of joy and at Your right hand are pleasures forever.