FEASTING AT THE LORD'S TABLE

Sorry I haven't posted in almost a week. I've been really busy with something, something that has to do with transformation. I think in one of my previous posts I mentioned something about having a problem with bad eating habits. Well, a couple years back I was in a small group with some girls and a couple of them were doing an online bible study/accountability that had to do with food issues and weight management. I was intrigued but didn't think about it until recently. As I've been exploring this issue of holiness I've been convicted of my eating habits. Like I've said before, I'm not overweight but I've noticed recently that I've been more out of control with my eating habits than normal. Or maybe I've always been out of control to some extent and it hasn't shown up in my body until I was getting closer to 35. And definitely the Lord has opened my eyes to this sin that has been keeping me from a deeper intimacy with Him.

Anyway, the last week I've been doing this online bible study. It's put out by settingcaptivesfree.com. They have courses in overeating, substance abuse, pornography, etc. The wonderful thing is that you can do the course for free. You also get a mentor who has been through the course before and has been trained. I just finished day 9 and it's like layer after layer of stuff is being peeled off of me. I guess you could say the layers are like scales over my eyes. I realize that I go to food for things that food can never do for me. And I keep coming back just like the woman at the well kept coming back for another relationship but it never satisfied. I need to learn how to drink from the living water that Christ offers and promises will satisfy. Here's a quote from today's lesson -

Learn how to quench your thirst in Christ and you will also satisfy your soul hunger. I can tell you that drinking of the living water is so pleasing to the taste, and so filling, that it removes the need to eat sinfully.

I highly recommend this course if you are struggling with these issues. You can check out reviews at amazon.com. The man who wrote the course and developed it through his own weight and food struggles is a Calvinist and loves Piper, Spurgeon, etc. I'll write more later about this but won't make the blog into a blow by blow account of how it's going. The first phase of the course lasts 60 days. I'm on day 10. Pray for me. I want to really and truly believe that Jesus satisfies my deepest needs that up until now I have tried to medicate sometimes with food.

Blessings.